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Liz: Burnt Out Dreamer, Storyteller, Current Procrastinator, Future... ???
Everyone Has a Turning Point (A Love Letter to my Least Favorite Job)
It was a random night after yet another long day at work, the kind with call outs, endless lines in the business, an overbearing boss, and employees incapable of a simple job. Meanwhile, my wonderful boyfriend in my kitchen, warming up food for us as I sat on the couch I had found a few months prior. It was free, stained, rips from a restless cat. (Did I mention free?)
As I sat there, it hit me: I realized the mess I had gotten myself into. But here’s the thing- it wasn’t even just my job, my living situation, a paycheck that covered rent but didn’t make up for the immense amount of therapy I would need thereafter.
Worse yet? I had convinced myself I needed to prove that I could do this. Plus, the pay raise was something I could not really shy away from. But here’s the real kicker: ‘hustle culture’ had eroded any of the values I thought I had.
So I sat there, on that raggedy couch, and I decided I had had enough. That night I decided to commit to buying the domain, spend the time on the website…
And I Did It
I had been so afraid to start, but it was time to quit pretending that this was not something I had wanted to do. My fear of rejection and constant need for perfection had already stopped for me about 2 years, and this was something I could not just let go.
In a search for meaning, I did this as a sort of beacon of hope. Something to get me out of the never ending hole that just kept getting deeper. However, I did not know that it was actually pretty difficult. But I would not trade that work for anything.
This blog came to be when I was long burnt out from my full time job. Being an adult doesn’t have to equal full time misery, and I realized that at the right time. It was a long time coming and I did not get to go out in a blaze of glory, but I did quit.
My people pleasing tendencies told me to remember that this was a great opportunity and to not burn my bridges. But who am I kidding, it was a miserable 9 months.
And now here I am, starting a new job. With my new found free time and hopeful glint in my eye I am here to:
- First of all- to laugh at the absurdity of life, because if we don’t then we’ll cry.
- More importantly: rebel against the lie that suffering is equivalent to success.
- But above all, to find others like me: your over-thinkers, procrastinators, and typical ‘I-need-to-accomplish-everything-but-desperately-need-a-nap’ folks
Who Am I
Outside of my debilitating anxiety about my impending doom (parking at my apartment, and bills that occur every month) I find comfort in period dramas and movies like Jurassic Park, or tv shows that rip out your heart and stomp all over it.
By day, I peruse Pinterest for inspiration for self improvement and decorating ideas. At night, my true creativity peaks.
Guilty of being equal parts ‘seize the day’ and ‘what if the day seizes me’. Never ending nervousness, and boundless curiosity.
You can also catch me hiking on a beautiful day, I can and will out-fish you, and would camp more if not held back by L.A.’s astonishing lack of wildlife and nature.
My creative side peaks at night, when I should be sleeping, and when I have an assignment or something more important to be doing. Which is probably why I have not been as creative as when I was in school. Without endless deadlines, my need for distraction is not as loud (ironic considering this chapter of my life).
Crocheting comes naturally to me, though it can be painful for my wrists. Reading and writing allows me to expand my mind (when I can sit down for more than 5 minutes), and I am always looking for new skills to pick up.
As an animal lover, my need to change the world is also driven by sad puppy videos and the horrors of humanity. One dream of mine is to be able to rescue animals and provide a loving home for them. Bonus is that my boyfriend also has a huge soft spot, so that dream is more attainable ;).
The Dichotomy That is... Me
To know me, is to know that I contain multitudes:
- I crave the hustle of a courtroom and the chance to make a difference, and the silence and unambitious enlightenment in a quiet forest in the Pacific Northwest.
- I crave the chaos of motherhood and the tradition of settling down, and the prospect of backpacking across New Zealand.
- I am officially 23 going on 80- just as much ‘fight the system’ as I am ‘pass me my crochet hooks and let me nap’.
Credentials. A.K.A Why You Can Trust Me
- Bachelors Degree in Communications Studies: I can write your essay for you in an hour and go on and on about the devastating effect of social media on humanity.
- Oldest Daughter: Bossy since birth, I have always been used to running the show. That energy has channeled into self scrutiny that needs to be perfected for self improvement. We’re getting there. Born to be a chaotic neutral.
- Lover of the law, future* JD: I discovered my love for the law in a single class and am bribing the universe with coffee to get into law school.
Why You Might Be Here
With the state of the world you find yourself in between wanting to feel like an adult and also ‘are we sure this is even real?’ You might:
- Daydream about quitting your job to pursue better endeavors. Herding sheep in the Alps anyone?
- Feel like a walking contradiction (hello, my fellow chaos gremlin)
- Need proof that you can figure things out. Even when things get tough.
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